This a personal blog full of my original poetry. My reoccurring themes are commonly about depression, anxiety, grief and other controversial topics. Within each of my poems, I allow myself to become vulnerable while expressing personal experiences or ones of my friends or family.
Oh what dance partners you are,
a delicate work of pain.
Once pristine, now distressed,
an entanglement of wordless feelings.
Hollow howls corrupt the corridors of my lungs,
an anthem familiar to a few.
Slaves to the sun, slaves to the moon.
My nightmares riddled. My breathing shallow.
I feel like I’m drowning,
and my heart is the sea.
Depleting me to nothing but my pointe shoes.
Waves caress my feet
as i look to the tragic sky
for not a ray of sunlight survived
broken up, the sun and sky
Brutal. Vengeful. Spiteful.
their wars moaned through storms
and their agoney in waves
Tormenting the sea slowly
she was altered for eternity
screams for help errumpted, but none came
a chaos caged in terror
she collected her tears
in lost treasures at the bottom
She fought hard
to purify the malady poisoning her soul
Desperate. Helpless. Hopeless.
one day the sun will rise again
and the sky will be bright and blue
one day she could be happy
my serene reflection
blood on the pine
the feather of my fingers
honey drips from the horizon
casting constellations
my grief imprinted on the grass
the cast of my silhouette
haunting the river
trauma will bruise these pages
forever
the ink of discontent
will never run out
and I think about
today
how I woke up with anxiety
how I took a shower
and my shoulder hurts
and my ribs won’t stop rearranging themselves
and the pain is always better
but it never goes away forever
so yes
I am preoccupied with yesterday
simply because
the healing is never complete
and I don’t ever know
when the devil will come back to feast
on the frayed rope
holding my heart in one piece
and how can you heal
ever
when the struggle is never
complete
when I still see those glowing eyes
watching my every move
from a closet that never stays closed
I can’t let my guard down
ever
I can’t move on
because it never stops
following me
like a shadow
I cannot sever
from my ankles
so it drags behind me
everywhere I go.
green grass
blue sky
first kiss
one of many to be shared
laying down, you fell asleep
I listened to your breathing
watched you sink into the earth, listened to your heart beating
we were perfect
not knowing what it was, but soon discovered it to be love
now I’m falling apart
we are soul mates, but as best friends
brown grass
grey sky
last kiss
we tried.
it is too dark to hide yet,
i embrace the darkness
and wonder if it can provide
a more comfortable home than my own.
music is captivating, yet
just beyond my reach
and i am wrapped in
noise polluting my atmosphere.
the fragrance you have left behind
has permeated me and although
i have torn my skin with hot water
i still feel your fingers
as graceful.
the fog on my tongue
tells me of better days
and better memories
lost in the haze
that i will never get back.
my hands are rough
and shattered
and scarred, yet
you wish to hold them closer
to your beating heart.
and i am undone by all of you.
Not So Simple 